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I'd like to start off with apolagising a thousand times to ash-carpenter whoms birthday i missed, i mena tto send a happy b-day message here but the library was closed and mums comp has 10000 to many viruses so it crashed... again.... anyway i suppose there is better late than never
HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY!!!!!
also summer seem to come here it is hot outside and i want to tan up a bit this summer, i look like a ghost.... hope yall have fun and once again, i'm sorry
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[06 May 2009|10:57pm] |
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the summer is soon here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that is awsome from where i'm sitting and today the ice left the rivers so the warmth is not far away!
my newest adiction is the new trend of white tea it is good for you and with lemon it is amazing, i make ice tea out of it and carry it around with me in bottles all the time, i ice green tea too but white is tastier
i went windowshoping today and i found this kinky silver bikini that had chains and screamed dominatrix, also a pair of hookershoes that is leopard patterened... so my to buy list gets longer by the second, anyone got a million to spare???
this summer i love......
.... ice tea
.... escada ocean lounge
.... inlines
... hot days at the beach
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| have someone seen my brain? if so don't step on it plz |
[28 Apr 2009|12:23am] |
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i lost my usb today, somewhere between the dinner table and the desk it is gone, i know i had it, held it, and even placed it on a flat surface but i can't remember where and i have looked everywhere for it! it is freaking me out.
i think i might need to get something fun to do i feel very dazed lately. i'm still not sure why, but my reliable sorcess say it is cause i'm not out enough, but hell i'm out every day these days.... but i still just wanna curl up in my bed. talking of beds i had a spec-fucking-tacular dream the other night, i'll add it in a cut lets just say i saw Romeo in a new light, and i'm talking the musican not the dude in the play. further my cat has now lost his stitches and is all good pics are up on myspace you'll find linkage under my homepage, and i am stuck on the xmas_n_july fic, i need to get some sun and warmth and get inspired agan....
so the dream...
( the dream )
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| some happy things |
[03 Mar 2009|11:42pm] |
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i'm moving soon, like anyday as soon as they call and give the ok soon, and i am finally FINALLY writing again, requests will be ansvered but i am currently finishing the pinseries part three for cb, a scene for a th fic i promised stella to do, and making my calendrar clear for the new btvs/atsthingy  the banner is not mine i'm not taking cred for it but you should check out the comunity here on lj, i'm in and i hope you are
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| words of meaning |
[19 Feb 2009|01:03pm] |
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i sent this email to a few people i feel like i've negelcted one of these peope is my mum. i got this reply today and i can't help but feel very good aout it. she is the best mum one can wish for.
( words of mum )
just had to share. thank you mum <33
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stole this from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) enlisted_smile</lj>
IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (Amarok, iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool...just type it in man!
Opening Credits:
Love is a many slendored thing -grease soundtrack
Waking Up:
Filth in the beauty - gazette
First Day at School:
a thousand words savage garden
Falling In Love:
rock'n'roll is "not" dead -miyavi
First Kiss:
enter sandman - metallica
Fight Song:
play my music - camp rock soundtrack
Breaking Up:
aint afraid to die - dir en grey
Prom:
night moves bob-seger
Life:
all the things she said - tatu
Mental Breakdown:
paradise by the dashboard lights - meatloaf
Driving:
i fail -regi ft scala
Flashback:
dappunroru koushien (baseball) -miyavi
Getting Back Together:
keep the faith - bon jovi
Wedding:
backstreet girl -social distortion
Birth of Child:
dozing green - dir en grey
Final Battle:
mellos theme - death note soundtrack
Death Scene:
sk8er boi - avril lavinge
Funeral Song:
affirmation - savage garden
End Credits:
savin' me - nickelback
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| v day and bday preps |
[14 Feb 2009|04:25pm] |
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Happy valentines day all!!!!!!!!
today i've been productive, i've written a th valentines fic that i'll post here later and i have made a very short but i hope good wish list for my birthday. i've given it to my father earlier and i hope he gets his ass around to give me something from it.
( wish list for mybday )
I hope that my stepmum buys me the satinsheets they use as they're wonderful and tons better than the ones i can aford for myself. I also put out a hint that i'd be a happy gal if someone could find somewhere online to get me leverage..... my uncle is good at that type of thing so i hope my dad has sense to ask.
further to say that the vid i linked in my last post is not working on youtube but if you ask i'll send it to you it is the only vid i ever made that i'm happy withso i'm a bit more than anoyed that i can't have it on youtube....
so lots of love on this valentines day!
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[29 Jan 2009|01:26am] |
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right now i'm adicted to moviemaker and this is my third completed vid,my only Linsey vid at that ... hope you enjoy it, or hate it but that you let me know either way.
http://se.youtube.com/watch?v=MqIhVzG3gzk
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| movies, fun, talks and remember to not eat me when i'm ground meet at the deli |
[24 Jan 2009|11:17am] |
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so yesterday was great as expected, right now i'm at annas job while she works a little, anyway i'm feeling strangly awake, then it is 11 and i was up at 7 so yeah either way we're watching the dark knight tonight which i expect will be great i mean it is nominated for atleast one oscar and since when are batman moves nominated for oscars???
now i'm gonna go snoop through ff.net for some fun fics and i recomend you all to read the cookiefic on thf!
mats says to remind everyone that you shouldn't eat me if i get sold as groundmeet at the lokal deli and or tairesturant. so keep a weathered eye out!
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[23 Jan 2009|04:29pm] |
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right now i'm at annas place big freaking YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
me and her is gonna overindulge on movies and snacks and sleep and just talking, god knows i've missed it. Martielle called she say she heard i was more happy already... it's a shame it only lasts until monday morning...
adding to it all i am mostlikely gonna be called to an interview next week!!!!!! it might be the breakthrough i need so cross your fingers.... *crosses mine*
i'm tryinbg to figure out how to raise founding for thefarm/ridingschool/playhouse mum works at, they're in dire needs so if you know about ANYTHING i'll try to make it real.
lot of love, to all of you, pleaseleave a note??
cricketpoor aka malin
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| my home is back ars funky as that is |
[06 Jan 2009|08:31pm] |
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elle left today, and i'm both sad and relived in different ways, i mean i love my little sis but now i get to be me again, i got to be up and hang out with my mum and i got to clean, my room is going to be lovely tomorrow when my stepdad has the thingies to make the vaccumcleaner work. it was sooo good to clean!dumdum and gusti helped me, or rather dumdum helped and gusti was in the way.... so my bed is made and i have washed a quadrillion sheets and tomorrow i'm going runing, and life is good, if you don't cout the part that misses elle.... but still things are working out in the way i want them to, i hope.... now lets see if my mums old landlord has an apartment for me. i mean the time of wonders is yet to pass and all so maybe i can afford it!!!!
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[06 Jan 2009|02:18am] |
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we shall not cease from exploration
and the end of all our exploring
will be to arrive where we started
and know the place for the first time
-T.S Elliot
i'm currently talking homes with elle, yesterday wasn't a lot of fun as she didn't do a lot bt be sad all day..... well we slept through the visit of the hoirrid family....
today i really wanted to do something fun, but elle didn't want to do anything so no go, so that is my last day with elle, watching her long for the comp.... fun huh?
Elle if you're reading this do NOT frwak out about the previous blog, it is exactly how i felt at the time but that don't mean it is the entire truth...
thanks to nna and lieuwke that cheered me up big time after my last rant. love you both.
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| fucking servant |
[04 Jan 2009|01:48am] |
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so today basiclly sucked monkey dick, i have been like a fucking servant all time marie has been here (but aparently they "try" and it hurts them that i bring up how much on the outside i am, or when i speak swedish to my family who are the only ones that seem to see me) i'm supposed to be there be ready when THEY chose to and i'm supposed to make food for them or run erands, and then they are shocked that i am bitter. my god i feel like life is being pulled out of my body everytime they do that bubble thing that some couples do you know that thing that makes it clear to stay the fuck away, without words. they both know that i hate to be alone but it seem not to bother them to even say something before going off to be in their no MY bed room for fucking HOURS without acnoledging my existens until they are hungry and need food. today has been really bad and tomorrow will be worse and i'm not sure i can take it. i feel lim,e the medival servant that is supposed to be there but not be seen that is only there at the whim of the master couple. i have felt it for days. and it all seems so pointless i get no joy out of them being here, they ruined everything i loved about my new room and i can't say anything cause it hurts them to hear it cause they are really trying to include me or so they say, if this is really trying i hate to see what they would do if they didn't cause i have NEVER felt this outside of everything not even last summer which is saying something, i just miss my friends and i want my sister back i want to be able to talk to them make them see but i can't cause everytime i try i get the fucking guilt card, do they honestly think i want to hurt them? can they really blame me for talking to my family when they will sit in silence and see me almost cry at the kitchen table being so left out? what do i have to do to be good enough? to be seen and heard without being snarky or perverted or anoying i just want to be me but they don't see me, they only see me when i annoy themi feel like i can't do it anymore i just wnat to scream and rant and rage but how can i how can i be the one haven't i deserved any respect at all? i didn't invite them here to be a maid and watch tem in my room if they even let me in through the door, i invited my friends over, my little sister and her girlfriend, and it is all so fucked up now i am not sure i can take to meet them this summer as i had planed, not if it is gonna be even half of this. i want me friends, i want anna to cheer me up and i want a cuddle and a movie without somemone making out loudly through all of it, i want this week to start over, i want nice memories instead of this. but i can't have that i can only listen to their happiness and know i'm not worthy. so why bother they know i'm siting alone in the next room and they don't even pretend that they care unless they want something. i'm gonna see if i have tears left and cry my self to sleep now.
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What if you had a baby with the last person you texted?
we would have serious issues I’m sure…
What are the chances of getting with the person you like?
I’m thinking like no way and well no FUCKING way
If your ex said they hate you, you'd say?
which of them? Well I don’t have had real relationships?
Name something you are doing next friday?
I have no fucking clue so why bother answere
What are your favourite colour(s)?
black, green and black
Anything you want to ask someone?
not really I usually ask right away, maybe ask a certain someone if they wanna fuck me over the weekend
What are you excited about?
xmas, but really I’m looking forward to trainhop this summer, I’m gonna be wasted for weeks lolz
Do you drink bottled water?
yes only as I hate the tastelessness of tapwater it sucks arse
Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
i will get killed by sis if I say I dunno so I say yes although I think I haver little baring on what happens in the world of others but sis claim I changed her life so I believe her
LAST THING:
Movie:
miss congeniality 1 and 2
Phone call:
halebop my cellphone delivery people
CD Played:
Tokio Hotel
Time You Cried:
this summer
Been Cheated on:
Just lets say that she wasn’t in my life a second longer than those words took coming out of her mouth
Lost Someone:
by death yes but even those that dine in hades is with us in spirit so
Thrown up when drunk:
not recently… not in like over 6 years and the reson I did it in the first place was moonshine
Laughed until you cried:
yes I have
Do You Believe in love at first sight?
no I don’t bellive I fairytales or the easter bunny either… thanks for asking, I do however bellive in lust at first sight
Is your bed against more than one of your walls?
well yeah
Have you ever been attracted to someone's parent?
define atracted
Have you hugged anyone in the last 72 hours?
indeed I have
Have you kissed any friends on your top friends?
no
would you ever become a vegetarian?
npe I couldn’t live without chickensallad and I think being a veggie for animal rights is pretty dumb, I have seen the life quality of animals that get slaughtered for food and trust me they have it great, try bering a carrot for a change
Who was the last person you hugged?
Elle-staws
What was the first thing you thought this morning?
where the fuck is my cellphone and who the fuck is calling????
What was the last thing to make you laugh?
a gayguy on tv
How many people are you texting?
13 but none at this second
Will you be in bed within twenty minutes?
dunno we’ll see
Was it a boy or a girl to call you last?
computer do they count?
How many letters are in your last name? 7
When was the last time you hid?
this morning mum had elle kick me out of bed and make food
Are you any good at maths?
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
what are you listening to?
elle talking and my cat snoring
Name a person that you instantly smile when you see them?
lots of people, in dofferent ways, just like I sometimes want to hide from them all….
Is your current relationship status simple or complicated?
simply nonexisting
Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life? Noooooooooo I wanna get laid and go clubbing… I’ll drag elle and marie with me… for the clubbing not the other part, that I can do by myself lol
Have you ever liked someone way older than you?
my first boy fuck was 11 years older than me…. That answere your question?
Have you ever been a gymnast or a cheer leader?
for a few horrifying weeks yeah,…
What does the last text message you got say? Who is it from?
”Ditt kontantkort har laddats med 100.00 kronor. Nytt saldo finner du genom att ringa 149 eller *101# för information om priser se www.halebop.se” from halebop
Are you wearing bottoms?
jeans, I’d sleep in them but that is just nasty
Do you think boys truly understand girls ?
gay guys do, but really who understand girls? Not me and I am one
What was the last picture text message you got?
naked pic of a friend of mine, verrrrrrrry nice
Are you happy right now?
why wouldn’t I be stars is here… well there is the getting laid thing but beside that yeah
Any plans for tomorrow?
go outdoors, clean move como, wallpaper avoid brother and fiancée hide???
Do you usually tell people when they hurt your feelings?
no, I usually show it instead, people seem to take a fist in the face more serious than words
What' s on your mind right now? Blankness… sex… blankness… sister… bad jokes… x,mas… blankness
Best thing to eat for break fast?
smothie on lime and oranges
Have you ever kissed any of your top friends?
still no…
Are you dating the very last person you kissed on the lips?
no… not the one I kissed in “other” places either….
Do you always answer your phone ?
yes or well uless I left it somewhere.. that does happen
How did your day go yesterday?
hectic but good
Do you sleep on your stomach?
side or back is better I snore if I sleep on my stomach….
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| dinner with the devil |
[07 Dec 2008|12:31am] |
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poem, by me in december 2008
Have you ever felt as The invitation turned to dust The smirk on the faces has Crumbled and turned to rust The only place to go is now The only place that do not Burn so bright and just how Did you pull that lot? The host is serving poisoned darts That delivers with a smile so kind It goes straight to the heart And you wounder just what is behind That is when a reflection fall upon you And blinking you realise just what Happened and just how it happened too The host is you and the trap is one you sat Only for your self
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| new old dead |
[06 Sep 2008|12:33am] |
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i worked all daytoday and i'm actually geting to sleep in my own bed tonight i'm supriced myself! before geting home we went into luleå to meet mums new horse he's a beauty i liked him... when we got home (with my stepdad that we picked up from the train) it was the same old son, about my paying for gas and scheisse... ended up in my room making a quick sketch that anoyed me at once so i wont keep it... i already singeled out a new owner for it though, supricingly it isn't stars whom i usually send stuff to but not this i got something else planed for her. then the isue of mycat came up and i might have to put him down anyway even though he is doing sooo much better it made me upset, cause it isn't something i can fix it just i.... i think i'm gonna skip work tomorrow i'm having a headache anyway... but skiping means geting up and actually geting involved to do it.... ah well we'll see... i'm babysiting tomorrow nightwell mum is doing the work really i'm just gonna be at home and be here incase the kids wake up during the night..nt a hardship really... i'm gonna writte something tonight i think... i'm in the mood for poetry or lyrics, but i think i'm just gonna kill of another character in a spectacular way... any ideas?
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[04 Sep 2008|01:54pm] |
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i'm freaking freeezing cold my hands ar stiff, and i'm huddling toget warmer even though i'm indoors... outdoors it's raining and it is cold and i know i have to go out in it later to get to work.. it sucks...anyhow i'm here and i'm gonna message a lot of people now that it is free lol anyway i'm enjoying the music i have on right now and i'm alone but not you know i have annas sister online on an other comp downstairs... we're very people-person-y today huh? other than that i have very little to say i reread the harlequin by laurell k hamilton last night it is wicked! and i am currently drinking water from a soda can it is weird though you can sorta still taste the soda... i saw the latest ep of thtv, check it out you guys and don't foget the votes, both for th and cb... also i hope you play nice with my cousin that is poking around here, she is a nice gal and a fan of all things we like so, be nice and all is good so i'm gonna leave you with this pretty boring blogg for now... rock my world will ya? yours in one way or another malin aka cricketpoor
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| in the end of the begining: being lost and found |
[03 Sep 2008|10:12am] |
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yes i know i haven't been around in ages that is because the bloggg function on my cellphone seems to be off... i'm really sorry about this but i'm gonna fill you in on everything now... i was supposed to have most of the week off but i got called out for two extra days of work which is good in the way that i'm going to a concert the 16th and that means i'm missing my normal work day so i am happy to get hold of the hours and some extra anyway... my week off zas you hear isn't so off and the free time i have i spend either wandering or helping mum with her horse arthur or cleaning around the house and planing for my concert trip i have to book the tickets today so... thanks to a friend i have a place to stay so i can stay a couple of days and go shoping... although i doubt i'll have all that much money left after the show... ah well... i sent a short story in to a mag earlier this week i got the rejection note today, which i don't really see as an issue the story was crapy and dark so i knew they wouldn't really want it but i sent it in anyway... so i'm once again a bit to dark for mainstreem... anyone know of a good place to send dark short stories??? i've been feeling a bit better the last few days but i have felt bad for neglecting myfriends and family i have been prettymuchshut out of the world which made me feel good and awful at the same time... right now i'm feeling like i need to chat, so message me or text!
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I'm at my other other work i'm bored beyond belief and tired as fuck i haven't slept right lately and i guess this is the payback... I don't have any customers and well there isn't really any people around so sides the off old lady the view is about as exiting watching saint dry...
I did howdstre chose to see this from the bright side and i started writing again which might result in something this time... When i'm done with work i'm gonna call the publisher that has my old short stories and demand a answere so i know if i should take them else where there is big enough market to be able to try at someone that will atleast tell you that no they don't want them if that is the case i can't make anyone buy them if they are bad but i atleast want a answere...
Ah well mum will pick of up in a bit so i can in good and catch some zs... On the same bright side s insist must exist somewhere i might be getting to learn to play the guitar... Not sure though... Great now it started raining woot...
Take care please?
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[28 Aug 2008|01:29pm] |
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so today is the day! i got rid of the braces, sure i'm gonna have to have a thingie when i sleep but who cares? my teeth are officially shiny and straight and white! directly after i went to cut my hair, which acording to my hairdersser is now a style mix of bubblegum roxxstar and victoria beckham... i dunno it is more victoria than yu but it isn't her either it is shoulder length and it can be very spikey if one wants it to be... it is pretty and the hair dresser was nice and one of the few cb fans around these parts so it was cool to talk to her... yesterday night i was tossed out of the computer room cause of my stepmums antproject for school, she is a teacher... this made it possible to se the two last eps of season four of project runway which inspired me so watch out!!! today is good i've been hello kitty shoping for lovisa and yound a good gift for my cousin and now all i have to do is buy some more clothes and a pressent for my littelest cousin that turns 2 on the first of september i'm gonna mail it to her today though... i'm also hunting for the first part of stars xmas gift i can't say much about it beside that it wiol be sparklie! i had iranian food for lunch it was delishous! then i was talking to some animal rights freaks that had no clue of the real world... i'm all for animal rights don't get me wrong but these people were the type that want to let the lions and cows play together nicly in the winter.... idiots so i told them a few nicly chosen words about what i think on the subject and got a bunch of folders that will aparently change me to a better person. i also had a run in with a street "preacher" one od those people that want to force you into the church with them, aparently she could see from the other side of the street that i was going to be doomed because of my lustful thoughts... it was funny... so now i'm gonna go to a H&M i think and check it out i need to get more socks..... and then i'm heading by the post office so i might actually get all those letters sent!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yours in one way or an other malin aka cricketpoor
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